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Because I'm weak for things like that. ;_; If you got chance to help, please do, I hate bad news. No matter who's bad news they are.
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Ok, I haven't been drawing much anything lately, that is because I've been writing. Let's face it, allthought I do love drawing, writing has always been my rhing in the end. Always. There's people who lack intrest in drawing, and then there's other who lack talent. I have always kinda been part of the last group. There's millions of people who draw better than me, and miullions of those who draw worse than me, I do know that. I got friends who do say that I have talent on drawing. Personally... I don't think I do. xD Not atleast in the way I mean talent to be. Talent is seeing the whole image, trying to do what you see in your inner eyes and then putting it to the paper. Usually when I draw, I got no clue what I'm doing. I do want something, but I got no idea how to do it. And in the end, I end up something which I wasn't supposed to do. I don't think that's much of a talent, atleast it's not talented drawing. I'm just lucky, I guess. Not that I would acctually mind. Truthfully, I don't mind if I would never be a "real artist". I do things for my own fun, to let my feelings out. I have played with the thought to be something bigger, but when I think about it, I get all depressed and really, I don't want to be depressed. I want my art to be fun for me. Otherwise, there's no point doing it. xD So really... I guess I'm an artist on some level, but I don't feel it's definition for me.

Instead... When people ask me what form of art I do... Still, even when I hadn't writen anything for long time... I still felt like answering "I'm a writer" every single time. xD I got webcomic, I could say I'm a comic artist, but writer comes always first to my mind. For a person who can't even spell her mother language well because dyslexia... that's just odd. Kinda sad but... I think my intrest on writing has dropped of so many times in past couple of years have been the fact that I do so much typos, even when all I write is writen in finnish. And thing is... People closest to me do not have time/urge to read and correct my writings. And you know, nothing is more frusturating than look at your own text and know, that you have writen something terribly wrong but your brains won't tell you what is the mistake you have made. That is where my intrest has droopped last times. It wasn't for lack of ideas or because I wouldn't like to write the story itself. It's simply because I don't know what a hell I'm doing wrong. It's impossible to write a scene, when you loose track of your own sentences. People who read my stuff always tell me how "well I play with language" and stuff, but thing is... As easy it may seem to me, I get lot of headaches because of it. -.-

Now I desited, that LOR... will be writen in paper. There's too many things that I simply can't make as comic form. And now, only thing I have to beat is my stupid "Wagh-I-write-wrong-and-nobody-helps-me"-block. So if I seem to be... not drawing too much, it's because I really got to do something about my head with writing 'cause... Well, artist doesn't define me. But I feel that writer does. I have always been a writer first. ^^' I can't help, that's the way I am.

That's why I'm so quiet at the moment. On all levels. I'm beating my head against a wall, and this bugs me so much it's taking all my Mewtant-drawing energy and so on.

Just in case someone wonders.

LOR is going to have a webpages by Christmas, by the way. It's all finnish, and the story will be there at some point, I will add chapter per month in there at somepoint. So if you speak finnish and want to read a really long, really odd fantasy story... Just let me know. I just... Got to fix the page and figure out how I get my texts fixed from typos, because my boyfriend as much as I love him and he loves me isn't too good reading my stuff. xD I just don't write things in style he likes, and he doesn't really like reading in first place. And my friends are too busy to read and correct my stuffs. So... I'm kinda between rock and a hard place. -.- But I will figure out something, eventually. I got to. I really have to.

Otherwise I'll go nuts. xD